Things have been so crazy since the birth
of Callie, that I don't have time to get on here and write! I haven't
even finished the last book of the 50 Shades of Grey Trilogy that I
started 2.5 weeks before she was born..And she is 5 weeks old!!! I can't
believe it-5 weeks old. Oh how time is flying by!
I
am quite impressed with myself and how easily I have adapted to doing
things one handed. I can cook (I don't usually cook with her...usually
just fix a sandwich or marinate something if needed-I try to wait to
cook until Dad is home for safety reasons), eat, do laundry, take the
dog out and even get on the computer if I need to. Dad hasn't quite
mastered how to do things one handed-so he doesn't really help me much
when he gets home other than to hold Callie while I do what I couldn't
during the day. Sometimes she is very fussy and only wants to be held,
which I don't mind, unless I have some things I need to do. But they can
wait...she is only little once and I want to enjoy her, fussy or not :)
She
sleeps fairly well-on average she sleeps in 3 hours stretches at night.
Last night was actually the first night we tried to get her to sleep in
her crib. (This was actually 3 nights ago now...shows you how long it
takes me to actually complete something I start!) All alone in her own
room..away from me. I was pretty nervous that I wouldn't hear her over
the monitor if I fell asleep, so I woke up often to make sure I didn't
miss her crying. Around 4am I was so tired that I brought her to bed
with us for that feeding so we could just snuggle up together and go to
sleep with Dad.
I am trying to adjust
to it not just being Ben and I. I miss our relationship before Callie
was born, however, I wouldn't trade it for a thing. I miss just being
able to do what we want at any time-quick runs to the store, to see our
friends, just snuggling up in bed together with no interruptions. It's a
lot harder now to keep our relationship where it needs to be, talking
to each other on a daily basis, and just enjoying each other with he
everyday stresses of being new parents. But everyday we are getting
better and better :)
Overall-being
a Mom isn't as hard as I thought it would be at times, but I do get
frustrated on rare occasion, and that's when it is hard. I just take a breathe and go from there. That's all I can do.
